Cancelled

Just like that? Talk to me.

I couldn't concentrate at work today because I kept thinking about one thing, one person who might not even have been thinking of me at all. Thinking and thinking and thinking, endlessly and tearfully and painfully.

We need to talk because I need resolution:
  • tie up loose ends
  • find conflict and extinguish it
We need to talk because I need to know:
  • what went wrong?
  • why did you change everything?
  • how could you just not talk to me?
  • when will it be right again?
You promised:
  • to talk with me no matter what
  • to celebrate eight.eight.
  • to treat me well
  • to take care of me
Where are you for all of this now?

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