Days of My Life

If your heart's not in it for real Please don't try to fake what you don't feel 'Cause I would give the whole world to you Anything you ask of me, I'd do... That's a copyrighted song, not one of my personal creations. So, the exam is tomorrow. For both piano and poli sci. I don't think I'm going to bother studying for the latter. As for the former, I started practicing about two minutes after I got home after school until almost 6 pm for dinner, then I went to shower, and now I am here, blogging, supposing that doing so will alleviate some stress (not that I'm really stressing...) or something along that line. My hair is literally dripping wet. (Too much information.) I was supposed to get well by Tuesday, but I'm still somewhat sick. I've been taking one Tylenol every night before I go to sleep. Until last night, I thought that I didn't have to, because I was getting better. Gee, what a bad decision. I woke up this morning with slight si...

I'd never thought I'd never see you again Never thought I'd miss you so much I'd never thought that this would end Never thought that you'd be gone It used to be so hard to even imagine Because we both were so determined To hang on, to hold on To keep being strong in not letting us fall Little did we know You were soon to let go I've never thought you'd give up What happened to forever, what happened to us I'd never thought I'd never see you again Never thought I'd miss you so much I'd never thought that this would end Never thought that you'd be gone You left me here all alone To cry an ocean of tears in the cold I'm desperately trying to figure out What this is truly all about What we had was so good But I must have misunderstood All those words that you said The forgiveness and the regrets Must have been too much Because I know that if you could, you would Have held on And kept being strong Held on And not let us fall Still, I'...

Oh, right. Here's a "mean scene" I thought of a few hours ago: Boy: Will you go out with me? Girl: When? Actually, I'd thought of that a few years ago. I really hate the phrase "go out" in this case. Need I elaborate? Well, whatever. I don't want to.

Everyday you took my breath away But now there's no reply Only hi, goodbye Like a dream come true When it was me and you Now I just don't know why We say hi and Hi and goodbye (No, I didn't write that.) I feel so upset and unsettled that I just have to write. Something, anything. Well, not homework, or else I would have been done with all of it by now, considering how unsettled I feel and how much homework I have. It's now nearly 10 p.m, and I have just practiced piano for about ten minutes. I must say, playing made me feel a bit better. See, even though I've said so many times that I've long since lost interest in piano, I still enjoy it for this particular reason: it makes me feel better when I'm unhappy or "unsettled," as I currently am. And even though I'm not playing my own music (I doubt I ever will.) I feel like some of my burdens are slowly being relieved as I either vicariously hit or gently touch the keys of the...well, keyboard. (No,...

Last night, I decided that I would use song titles for the majority of post titles from now on. Until I declare otherwise, that is. I've been consuming a lot of Milk and Cereal for the past two days. And also last night, I thought, "Wow, some cereals have the lamest slogans." I was thinking "Cuckoo for Cocoa Puffs" from the song "Milk and Cereal", and then I came up with that thought. Um, yeah. I had some things to elaborate on that with, but I've forgotten them, seeing as how nearly twelve hours have past since those thoughts. So, yesterday, I said that I didn't have much to say, but about ten minutes after I posted, I realized that I had SO MUCH MORE on my mind, one of which is the following: We now have "Smaller Learning Communities" (SLC) at school. And let me just be completely blunt here: I completely detest it. I mean, I was perfectly at good terms with "houses" last year, because there really wasn't any differen...

And here I am, sitting at the computer, chatting and blogging. I really ought to be doing some homework and studying and practicing piano... Oh, if I haven't mentioned this already, I have decided to take that darned piano exam. And it's next Saturday at Whittier College. So, as of this moment, I have one and three-fourths of my five songs memorized. It was actually a pretty good day today, despite that fact that I'm still freaking sick. I was at my piano teacher's home for about four hours, doing that "intensive piano tutor" thing. In total, I got to "practice" about an hour and a half. (Lots of fractions today!) It was extremely useful. If I hadn't gone there today, I would still have only one song down and four to go instead of... Well, you get the idea. (I've had it with numbers for today.) Next week is going to be a heck of a hectic week. Monday: math (darn) quiz, chemistry exam. Tuesday: same as usual. Wednesday and Thursday: afterschoo...

Never wide awake Nothing I can really grasp ... Those lines really apply to me for chemistry class. Today in first period, I took two Tylenols (Yes, I'm sick. Have been since Monday, actually. Thanks, you dumb flu shot.) as my friend then advised me to (I usually take one only.)... and then in second period, I started getting a headache and wanted so badly to sleep. Well, admittedly, I'm always half asleep in that class. But today was a different case of sleepiness! It was weird...and the headache lasted until the end of third period. See if I'm ever taking two pills at the same time in the daytime again! Psh. Hmm, so Deca seems pretty boring now. There are a lot of "new people", and all but one of the seniors have gone. Which is sad. Because I was hoping that this would be the time when we'd all get to connect. On a mental level. It would have been nice...Or, at least, I'm hoping so. Well, now I should say "was" because they're gone. Agh, I ...

So I realize it's been that long since I've posted a new post. Or whatever. And it was, indeed, long. It feels like it's been forever (Remember that forever doesn't last.) since I last wrote here. Let's see, now. A lot of things have happened...most of which I cannot or do not feel the need to reaccount for. Since I've told each story at least thrice. In person to other people, I mean. The rest, I've forgotten, most likely because it's not important. Much. Guess what? I actually like P.E. now! Yeah, right? Surprise, surprise! The original humongous (The other day, one of my classmates was talking to his friend. And he called something "humongous", and his friend laughed and confidently said, "Dude, humongous isn't even a word." I laughed back and informed him, "Yeah, 'humongous' is a word. 'Ginormous' isn't." He seemed quite shocked! That was hilarious.) class of 80 split into factions of...Well, I do...

So, I just got back from the Awards Banquet at the LA Convention Center... I'm quite disappointed, but hey, it's only my first year, so I suppose I did okay. I got a bronze medal for interview. Gee, if I hadn't gotten nervous and hesitated as much, I probably would have gotten silver. And so much for art and music... Oh well. It was pretty fun, though, the banquet. We did some screaming/cheering for our teammates and for other schools, as well. Palisades won first place overall. Yay, Palisades! No, seriously. That did not contain sarcasm. Ah, I'm contemplating transferring over to El Camino or Palisades...maybe North Hollywood... Ha. Just kidding. I'm perfectly content with where I am. Though I really cannot say the same for how I did. But again, this was only my first time. I think sometimes, I'm too hard on myself. But most other times, I'm too easy on myself. Way too much so. Anyway... ( sigh ) I did get to see Mr Essay Guy, but only from afar, unfortunat...

I'm pretty disappointed, but I'm okay. I got a B in both math and chem. I got 60% on the math final...not too surprising there. Geez, I so could have done better/ could have done so much better. I went from my 90.5 to 83.5. Nice, huh? What a steep drop. Ah, at least I didn't splat...much. I don't know how I did on the second part of the chem exam, but it mustn't (I realize that I rarely see this word in writing...and now I know why.) have been too well. My 90.8 that reduced to 89.6 diminished to 88.2 or something around there. I missed the "bump-up" by three points. Not percentage points, but points. I was pretty disappointed about chem. Not as much for math, though, because I already knew I'd blown the final. Just like I did last semester for trig. Oh, wow. There must be something wrong with me. I haven't gotten pure, straight A's since eighth grade now. Hmm, something's telling me that I probably shouldn't have said that... But I can...