Days of My Life

I have always anticipated it, I am so horrible at chemistry, dagnabbit. There's a calc quiz tomorrow. I've actually been looking forward to it, frankly speaking. As I was walking into second period today, Mrs. J rhetorically asked, "Do you (addressing everybody) think chapter nine is a form of child abuse?" She's so funny. I actually like chapter nine, supposedly the hardest chapter in the book... I think I might be weird, but whatever. The AP Calculus BC exam is next Wednesday; I must study (for the FRQ section)! Let us not even begin to discuss chemistry. I hope I don't fail the math 2 subject test on Saturday, if it's even possible to fail those things. I read an article today about UCs limiting admission of Asian Americans starting with the high school class of 2012 in order to make the system more "diverse" and "fair." Fair? How in the world is that fair? Limiting admissions based on ethnicity is the same as...well, yeah, that thou...

If you ever start to feel like I'm drifting away, Maybe it's just the fact that AP exams are coming up in about a week and I feel so unprepared. Maybe it's just the fact that I have three subject tests this Saturday, none of which I am prepared for. Lack of preparation really gets to me these days. I wouldn't say that I've procrastinated, though, because that would mean that I'd be studying the day before each exam, which I have long since learned it not at all good. For the past two days, I have felt so disturbingly unsettled. I really want to go run just to clear my head of everything, even if it's only for an hour. An hour's relaxation is much better than an hour's more of stress, right? You know, after having had some contemplation on it, I realize that life's actually been good to me. I mean, there're always the despicable downs (like now, dagnabbit), but in general, it's all good. Little things bother me far more than they should, a...

Ah, today, for the first time in a long time, I finally hung out with my baby cousins. Of course, they were loud and bothersome, but I had fun; I came home feeling very rejuvenated, surprisingly. They kept asking me to carry them and kept pulling on my sweatshirt. Whenever I said I needed to leave, it was as if they tried to bribe me to stay there for longer. And then, the youngest one asked me, "Wendy, will you be my best friend? Every day? Because I like you." What a sweetie. Too bad I talk smack about her all the time. But it's okay. School kills, man. I was so excruciatingly sleepy and exhausted yesterday and today. Yawns abound, I tell you. While at Castelar, I yawned and yawned and almost got fired! Although, I don't think it's possible for a volunteer to get fired, contrary to what they have frequently claimed. Anyway, I need to sleep this weekend. Sleep for hours and study for a bit. AP exams are upcoming! As is the SAT, darn it. You know what? After AP ex...

We're a picture In my mind When I want to find you I just want to close my eyes You'll never be that far from me So don't say goodbye 'cause You'll never be that far from me I am feeling much better today. Actually, I am perfectly fine today. Thank goodness for sleep--it works miraculous wonders, very honestly speaking. Too bad I missed calc, though, because I have absolutely no idea whatsoever how to do today's atrocious assignment, darn it. Who knows what happened in chem? Every other class, I don't care about. So I finally watched full episodes of "Big Bang Theory," "How I Met Your Mother," AND "Gossip Girl" tonight. All at the same time simply because I can. ;) "One Tree Hill" I am missing, but whatever; that storyline goes slowly anyway. Speaking of slow storylines, I want to be able to watch at least a bit of "General Hospital" every week just to catch up on what's going on. (No, I am not an old lad...

As of this moment, I am 95% sure that I won't run the marathon. Who knows if I even "qualify" for it anymore anyway? :( I never, ever want to go through the pain I went through today again. Never, ever again. It was excruciating, it was heartbreaking, and it was, in a way, almost life threatening (for me, anyway). Quite frankly, I didn't really care about the weather, because quite frankly, I couldn't feel anything, including my two arms. My feet hurt, my thighs were sore, and my calves were numb; my heart was slowing down, my lungs were almost compressing abnormally, and my mind was just so freaking messed up. I lacked any strength at all, and I lacked the courage and motivation. Really, I just wanted to get picked up around the twelfth mile. I couldn't take it anymore, so we walked for about five miles straight. It hurt. It really hurt. The pain was one of a kind, a kind that I never, ever want to experience again. Ever. Because it hurt more than anything th...

18 miles tomorrow; wish me luck.

Even though I slept nine hours last night, I have been wanting to just go back to sleep all day. I absolutely, utterly, wholeheartedly, entirely, FREAKING HATE being sick. My throat hurts, my nose is congested, my eyes are teary, and my appetite is nonexistent. I can't taste or smell anything. I can barely see clearly whenever I get up. It hurts when I swallow, it hurts when I inhale, it hurts when I do anything. I HATE being sick. And there's not even the slightest possibility of denial this time. :( I don't even know how it happened. I went to sleep two nights ago just fine, and then woke up in the middle of that night with a very bothersome earache. A couple of hours later, I started sneezing and blowing my nose like insanity. Goodness gracious. I hadn't been sick in about two years, too! And the last time I was ever this sick? Five years ago, thank you very much. Argh grr roar. Ugh! I'm going to go to sleep at nine o' clock tonight. There's nothing good ...

I heard a sad song playing on the radio About a girl who loves him But she never really let it show Outside the rain keeps falling down my window I'm crying inside, gotta see you tonight I understand and if somebody broke your heart before But it wasn't me who left the pieces laying on the floor But it's me who's out here in the rain knocking at your door Paying the price for all of his lies I'd write you a song but I can't find the words to say To tell you what's on my mind But even a symphony can't say what you mean to me So how can I, how can I give you All of me When all I get is half of you Now tell me what am I supposed to do If all I get is half of you If all you give is half of you Wanna be the reason that you never look for love again Baby girl, I wanna be your lover, your best friend How we gonna make it if you never gonna let me in What can I do to prove that my love is true I keep holding on for as long as this gonna...

really does give you diarrhea. Don't ever eat it in excessive amounts in a limited time frame. Just don't ever! I haven't done any work at all all weekend. I suppose that that's plausibly excusable, since technically, spring break doesn't begin until...tomorrow. Which means that I have to start working on chem tomorrow, dagnabbit. And I have to go to the doctor's at three. For some reason, I always dread doctor visits. What did I do today, you ask? Well, first of all, thank you for caring to inquire about my day. Here goes: I woke up at 8:30 or so and then did all the morning stuff, ate breakfast, then sat here at the computer for a while, all until around 11:30, when I went out to walk/ run, neither of which I really did because some body didn't want to do either. But yeah, we just sat in the gym at Alpine and watched some old guys play basketball, which was very interesting, because you'd assume that these old Asian guys would be at home reading a news...

"Fast and Furious" was good. Loud, but good. I feel like spoiling the movie for people. But whatever. All I can say is, it seems so unrealistic! And I don't like the ending. That's all. Since when were movie tickets eleven dollars?! As far back as I can remember, they were $6.75! Then again, after I had that thought, I recalled going to watch "Frost/ Nixon" during winter break for $9.75... Interesting. Man, everything's so expensive these days. So, see, how are people supposed to spend money to stimulate the economy when the prices of everything are rising while incomes are declining? Goodness gracious. I would like to minor in economics or something. Heck, if I could, I'd minor in everything, especially Gender Studies, whatever the heck that is. On the way home earlier, the car, put simply, broke down. A block from home! Of course, S and I couldn't just leave C and her sister there, so we just sat there in dumbfounded astonishment that it actual...

My dad woke me up this morning at 10:30 (ugh) and asked if I wanted to go to the flower market Downtown with him. Seeing as how it was such a beautiful morning and considering that I love flowers, I accepted the offer. So we were at the flower market place for about 22 minutes (minus three, according to the parking meter). And it was absolutely gorgeous. I love that place! That one block is full of flower shops and markets and all that awesomely good stuff. Yay! At the moment, I'm torn between playing tennis with my cousin and going to watch "Fast and Furious" with my sister and her friend and her sister. I think I want to go watch the movie... But I know I don't want to let my cousin down... Ugh. See, first I have nothing on my plate. And soon, I'm torn between multiple events (in this case, only two)! But yeah. Man, I LOVE flowers! Like, asdfjkl; much. Oh, yeah, I didn't just happen to have a camera with me at the flower market. I purposefully brought it wit...

-I want things to work out between us. --There is no 'us.' There are you and I. -Well, you and I are both here, aren't we ? I have been so exhaustingly tired this week. I want to just hibernate through spring break. Fat chance! Homework breaks my heart, darn it. I'm going to Rock soon, so I'll probably do some more of this when I get back around ten. The difference between a democracy and a dictatorship is that in a democracy you vote first and take orders later; in a dictatorship you don't have to waste your time voting. -Charles Bukowski